One Week!

I am getting so antsy to leave for Florida next Saturday. (my entire family is going to Fort Lauderdale, FL with my brother Matt because he qualified for 4 events in the swimming Nationals! And the other amazing thing is that BOTH Alex and I are able to go, its practically a miracle--and I'm so excited)

I have a feeling it might be a long week in anticipation of our trip (and it won't help that I'm working Monday too). I'm not disillusioned, I know how lucky I am to usually work a 4 day work week. So everyone out there who works a 5 day work week is probably thinking "oh you poor thing...must be really rough" but when you get used to working only 4 days...5 is tiring. Plus...its not like I sit on my duff the other 3 days of the week. I do own my own business (which I am working on turning into my full time job) So, I do actually work more than 4 days a week. (I'm just not chained to a desk or a certain amount of hours the rest of the time)

For a year now, I have had every intention of working my way up in Mary Kay to the position of Director...but for this entire year...I haven't changed my career level at all. I was a Senior Consultant last year, and still am now. So, while I was getting ready for Career Conference in Providence last weekend, I started thinking about why I'm still in the same place. Because there is definitely a reason...and I think I figured it out.

The first thing you need to know is that I am stubborn, I think in terms of projects, and once I make a real decision to move forward on a certain project--just get out of my way--my friend Kim M. describes me like a bull. The trick is to get me on to that project--to get me to hitch my wagon to it--you can't convince me, I have to make the decision myself. (that's where my stubbornness comes into play)

So, as I was thinking through why I haven't moved closer to directorship--I realized that the problem is that I am not UN-happy being a consultant. I know in my head that being a director is better...and I know that I want to get there, but I am not unhappy at the level that I am at. Plus, I do really like my tool job. Especially right now, we have a lot of things going on in tools--new tool lines, new website, new brochure, new advertising. All of which are my responsibilities...so its keeping me busy. And for me, busy is good--I like being busy. The ONLY thing that I really don't like about my job is that I have to be there for certain amounts of time. I am required to be in the office, 4 days a week, from 8 to 5. And, I have to earn my vacation time--and request that time off. Really...that is the only thing that I don't really like--but its the reality of 99% of jobs, and it's the job I'm in right now. So my director, Lisa, wanted to know what she can do to make me more uncomfortable to light the fire under my butt. So now, she's taken to calling me randomly--when she's getting a pedicure in the middle of the day, when she's driving to Massachusetts on a weekday to stay for 5 days, etc, etc. Basically driving home the point of making her own schedule. Doing things on her own time. I think that will work...it already is.

It will really drive home if I can't make it to Seminar this year...which I am thinking may not happen. Because I am taking a week off to go to Florida next week---I can't easily take a week off in July for Seminar. So that will be tough...

The other side of that is that I can't leave the tool job right away, nor do I want to quite yet. There are so many things that I have accomplished in this job--so many things that I am a part of, that I can't leave it yet. So we'll see what happens...time will tell. God is in control, He is in the drivers seat, and I'm just working the radio and going where He leads.

How's that for a completely random post??